I told Zeke about it before he left for work this morning and we said another prayer together. I love him so much. He is such a great friend and support to me. He said maybe it's not something you can prevent, maybe you just need to be ready for it. Okay... scary. Whenever I feel like this, I turn to the scriptures.
One of my favorite scriptures says, "Yea, I know that I am nothing, as to my strength I am weak. Therefore, I will not boast of myself, but I will boast of my God. For in His strength I can do all things." Alma 26:12 (I found this one when I was in college.)
And I love this one, "Therefore, let your hearts be comforted concerning Zion; for all flesh is in mine hands; be still and know that I am God." D&C 101:16 (I found it when Beck was in the NICU)
I just want to feel at peace. I hope that I can relax today and everything will be okay...
So, dear family and friends, if I call each and every one of you today to check on you... I just love you and want to make sure you're okay :) I keep thinking about my sweet niece, Angee, she just had a miscarriage last week and I feel so heartbroken for her. And my Dad, whose health is very fragile. And my wonderful brother, Jody, a stay-at-home Dad to 3 small children, ages 4, 2, and 3 months. And my sweet husband, Zeke, I don't think he even went to sleep last night... he's trying to finish this semester and work full-time. And my son, Gabe, who isn't feeling well this morning. And my nieces and nephews, especially: Angee, Brintton, Brooke, Jake, Jacey, and Jaxon. They are so amazing. And I pray for them everyday to feel happy even though their Mommy is in heaven. I love my family so much! I pray that I can be an answer to someone's prayers today.
This is a picture of my family from 2007:(minus Beck, Oskar, Samantha, Tyler, and Brendi)
Last night before I fell asleep I was feeling scared or nervous or anxious about something too. One thing I have learned, because I am a constant worrier, is sometimes while sometimes I never figure out why I feel that way, I know I can pray to Heavenly Father to feel peace and comfort and he never lets me down.
ReplyDeleteI'll be praying that you feel peace and comfort.
ps, Felicia Graves and my sister and married to brothers. I went to church in the same ward as her husband's family while I was in junior high and high school. I LOVE his family.
I have only met her one time, at her wedding reception, so she has no memory of it, but that's okay. I don't remember my wedding reception either. :)
We have had those times too. Sometimes I feel fine later but never know why I felt that way. I hope that you can find peace today. Man three in the morning comes early...you did go back to bed right? :)
ReplyDeleteYou are such an amazing person, Lacy! I really admire you. You are so genuine, sincere, and real. I LOVE your love of the gospel. It's contagious! I love that you want to be good and you care so much about those around you. You get a gold star! hehe, I just KNOW that's what you wanted: a gold star. Seriously, I think you are fabulous.
ReplyDeleteLove you Lace!!!!
ReplyDeleteI hope that nothing comes to pass with this feeling but you are amazing. You seem to handle trials so well. Even if you don't think so. You always have a smile on your face and look for the good in things and others. I just pray that it's just a thing to make you draw more closer to Heavenly Father!
ReplyDeleteHope things feel better soon. I've been having this feeling today, too, but I am pretty sure it's just because I started worrying about things I have no control over.
ReplyDeleteI hope you are feeling better with all your crazy health things.
ReplyDeleteI hope all is well for you. Being worry can be an tiresome feeling and a weight on someones shoulder. Poor thing. I have a feeling that what Zeke told is "to be ready or prepared". I think the spirit was speaking through him for you to comfort you... But if something does happen, pray and listen. The Lord and Saviour loves you. They'll help. But let time take it's course. :)
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